Learning to Deal with MCI

 

24 March 2023

I was diagnosed with MCI two weeks ago and I am trying to figure things out and deal with this brain disease that steal our memories away.

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I would be honoured to be able to help spread awareness of MCI as I do not really know much about it.

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25 March 2023

Other people's beautiful moments are amazing and I too love nature.  I am in another world when I am surrounded by nature.  It is as if I just forget all of life's difficulties and struggles and I feel at peace when surrounded by such beauty and I love listening to the crashing of the waves on the beach, they are my happy places.  Nature is my sense of relief and tranquility.

 

I find myself not wanting to be in busy places with so many people and when people are chatting away, I get so confused and lose track of the conversation, it is overwhelming a lot lately.  I cannot seem to take in large amounts of information anymore and I feel scared at times, my head gets all muddled and family and friends do not understand and it is becoming very frustrating and I have felt very alone, with this awful brain disease that seems to come from nowhere.

 

I can feel other peoples' pain, worries, and struggle.  Our struggle is real and it seems like a very scary road that we are on but I now see that there is a light at the end of that tunnel and that we must do what feels right for ourselves.  Making memories and enjoying all the people that we know and love, seems so important now but I also feel that I need time alone to think and take everything in, with no noise or interruptions and sometimes I feel at such a loss, that i just do not know what to say or do.

 

I myself have four wonderful children, an amazing grandson, aged one year and eight months and another grandson on the way.  Raising children is so hard, so many joys, tears, heartbreak and pain.  Our hearts break when they are hurting too.  Sometimes we have to laugh about it or we will just cry and not stop, I think.

I have been very emotional as well lately and I was thinking to myself, why am I crying over so many things?  I now realise crying is beautiful too.

 

I wish all a calm and peaceful day.

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26 March 2023

To all fellow MCI-ers:

May God give you strength  to face whatever hand that you are dealt with.

May He shower you with protection, love, good health, peace and contentment and may He always guide you by His beautiful light and love, Amen.

God loves you unconditionally and I thoroughly believe through hardship comes ease.

Life is not promised to us, it is unmeasurable.

Each loved one is only borrowed and God can take them away from us at any given moment.

We must take time to fully appreciate what and whom we have in our lives and try to avoid negative people and those that make us feel down or sad.

We need to be surrounded by love, warmth and understanding people, those that genuinely care and love us.

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14 April 2023

The days seem to pass by so quickly, there never seems to be enough hours in the day.  My husband took me away for a few day's break in Lincolnshire, it was a lovely secluded Scandinavian cabin, exactly what we both needed, a breath of fresh air, surrounded by nature & horses.  It felt like a little piece of heaven.

I am really feeling the beauty of our world and I have always found nature to be the most soothing place to be in, the noise of the bird's singing away, the sunshine, the clouds, the rain, the insects and creatures, it all has beauty within. I am thoroughly absorbing the "golden moments" but i also feel all of the hurt in this world, the pain, the struggles, everything seems to be combined into one at this  moment in time, beauty, darkness, light, pain, joy and sadness, it feels so very overwhelming with so many different emotions.

Even though we are many miles apart, I no longer feel alone on this journey, I feel like we are travelling this unknown and scary road that lies ahead of both of us, together, and that feeling of connecting is very important right now as I feel like I am disconnecting from many things, the things that I once enjoyed and the things that seemed so important before, now seem less important.

I wish I had a magic wand to ease the suffering in this world but without any suffering, there would be no humanity at all.

"Even the pain has taught me to see" is explained beautifully in the song.

I believe that there is a reasoning behind everything as everything is God's plan and He is the best of planners, He knows what is best for us, even if we cannot understand or even comprehend why we are in the situations that we find ourselves in.  He will never burden us with more than we can handle and to Him we shall all return. For those who believe and do good deeds of righteousness, gardens of paradise await us, where the most beautiful rivers flow beneath, sweetly fragranced, to dwell in for eternity.  It contains all that the soul desires and all that the eyes can delight in, everlasting bliss.  It is our reward, our greatest gift from our Creator, for those who have done good, will delight in the presence of God, our beloved Prophet and the angels.  It is beyond our imagination.  Every single second that we are granted here on earth, is so very precious. I thank God everyday for all of His amazing blessings.